Yesterday after I got off of work. I had a friend over.
No,
you prevs... not that kind of friend. While we were talking she said that Sadie and I were getting along very well and Sadie looks happy. Then she said, "Do you feel guilty about Sadie?" I asked why, she basically said that that I have forgotten all about JuJu my love, my girl. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I think about JuJu in the best way I can. Sadie is no JuJu. but JuJu was no Sadie. JuJu when I got her was about 6 years of age. Sadie is 2 years of age. After my friend left I was crying and down in the dumps of what she said.. I know she did not mean anything about it; but it hit hard. Like I have betray my JuJu. Sadie since something was wrong and tried her best to make me feel better; only making it worse. I love/ loved both of them in different ways. Sadie is 55 pounds of puppy; who thinks she can crawl into my lap without me knowing. That is funny how she does it. JuJu was always by my side, next to me; not in my lap. Last night I had the same night mare I had when I put JuJu down. Several times. It still gets to me.
Sorry for being a downer today. Thanks for listening.
Ray